Alone again...

Well it's Tuesday morning and the girls are in school. Greg is off work today because we thought that we would be leaving for OH this morning, but we are going to be getting the oil changed in the car, gas, groceries, laundry, and getting things packed for our trip tomorrow. Lauryn's last day of school is today and Liyah's is tomorrow morning. We'll pick Li up from school at noon and then head off to Columbus!!! Thank the Lord for a DVD player in the van!! This might be the best trip to Columbus we've had in a long time.

It's been a rough week with Lauryn. She is steadily trying to get herself to the top of the Leader board (leader being the key word there). She wants so much to do whatever that she doesn't want to listen when told to do something. I know I'm not the only mother out here in "blogville" that has this problem. Liyah on the other hand thinks she can be goofy and get away with not doing what she's supposed to be doing! I don't like either of the paths they choose to get their way, so I'm the mean cop and put a stop to it!

Greg played drums in church this past Sunday! He hasn't done that since we started going to the larger church. He did great and everyone involved with the music program liked what he did. I, of course, know he's an awesome drummer. I spent a lot of time during out dating months listening to him play and practice with the groups and bands he was with at the time. Ahhh, those were the days!

And then there were 2.....

Greg and I have the day (well from 9am-3pm) to be with each other without any distractions, ie. girls or grandma! It has been a time of sitting in Biggby Coffee shop in BR and playing on the Apple and doing personality profiles. I have just recently finished reading The 5 Love Languages, by Gary Chapman. It was awesome and I would recommend it to any married couples... he also has a book for children. I think it is really going to help up relate to Lauryn a lot better than we have her first 6 years. Thank God, I was ready to pull my hair out, knock out a couple teeth (hers, they'll grow back), send her off to kiddie bootcamp!

I was listening to a cd the other day and a woman that was speaking read this little prayer:

Now I lay me down to sleep

I pray my sanity to keep

For if some peace I do not find

I'm pretty sure I'll lose my mind.

I pray I find a little quiet,

far from the daily family riot.

May I lay back and not have to think

what they are doing at the sink.

Who they are with,

Or where they're at.

What they are doing to the cat.

I pray for time all to myself,

did something just fall off the shelf?

That I need not cook, or clean,

Well heck I've got the right to dream.

Yes, now I lay me down to sleep,

I pray my wits about me keep.

And as I look around I know,

I must have lost them long ago!

How true, how true.

Well, I did have a wonderful time with Greg for the day. We had a great evening with the girls going to AWANA @ church. We drove around Greenville in the dark and the rain, but we were once again alone and with each other. Quiet conversation and coffee!!

I'M TIRED

I'm tired of dishes, laundry, cooking, cleaning, dressing, feeding, making, washing, brushing, wiping, driving, buying, carrying and most of all acting like I'm not tired of it all......

I know, quit the whining (although that seems to be one thing I haven't gotten tired of doing). Everyone has to do these things in one degree or another. I need a break, a vacation, an escape, a getaway. I've been thinking a lot lately about running away. The only thing that keeps me from doing so is I don't know where I'd go. Sure I know there are friends and family that would let me come and stay for a little "visit", the problem is I don't want to visit!!! I want quiet, and peace, and nobody expecting anything from me!!!! Oh, sometimes I could just CRY!!

Things are going as usual. The kids complain and whine, GP sits and fusses at them. I stand and fuss at them. GP doesn't like what I fix for dinner, the kids complain and whine. It's cyclical, around and around, I'm quite dizzy and don't like it!

I'd like to know where I can come up with some meals that everyone would like. I would like to know how to get the laundry caught up and keep it that way for 2-3 days. I'd like to have a dishwasher installed so that I can atleast have a clean countertop and not see the dishes all day long. I'd love to have my 6 year old pack her own lunch, backpack and do her homework with out being asked. I'd love to have my 3 year old put her toys and dress up clothes away when she is done with them. I'd love to let my mother-in-law clean up after meal time and then do the dishes (it's not that she doesn't want to or hasn't tried). I'd love to get my back fixed once and for all so that I'm not hurting and grouchy because I'm in so much pain. I'd love, love, love for my husband to have the most awesome drum kit made on this planet!!!!!!!

It's coming into winter time and the sun isn't shining as much and that makes me sad. FOR REAL! I love the seasons, I'd just like a little more sun and not as much rain.

The world will continue to spin, I will continue to live in my little house with my family of 5. The seasons will come and go, I will still have to get up and help my family get through the morning routine. The days will start and end like clock work, I will continue to make meals, do laundry, find crumbs, beads and juice stains (I think that's what they are) on the floors. The nights will continue to go quickly, and I will continue to look forward to the day when I feel good, calm, in control and loved to the fullest!!!

Lauryn did have an awesome report from school. She is an awesome reader. She does so well at school, I'm really seeking to find a way for her behavior to be consistent throughout her whole day!!

Liyah is loving pre-school. She loves her new friends. She never remembers what she did, ate or played with at school, but I'm sure that will come!

Grandma Patty's day come and go without much change. She gets out when she can and she sits and watches tv when at home. I truly wish for her that she could do more, as I know she wants to!

Greg goes to work and brings money into our household. He is a blessing, as without him working we'd be without so much.

I continue to do the things that need to be done at home! Somedays it easy, other days not so much!

I 'm sure that we will all be better off when my back gets back to "normal".

Hey, drop me a note and let me know what you are up to. I don't hear from many of you, I don't even really know how many of you are reading this blog. But I'm always open for insights, tricks of the mothering trade and laughs (please tell me other moms have incidents that are worth laughing at!).

Gotta go now, --j